Friday, July 18, 2014

The night I finally sat down to write...

It felt foreign just now to sit down with the computer and type in the "" address into the browser.  What is this place?  It used to be so familiar and lately it's just not been on my radar at all!  Until I had a request for another post.  It's been coming, Jill!  I've been thinking about it!  The problem is, I haven't come up with anything yet.  Haha.  But this has been an evening of straightening the whole house before sitting down, of clearing clutter that has been sitting around for too long, of knocking things off the "to do" list that have been on there forever.  So I figured, why not blog too?

Probably not having anything to say would be a good first reason not to blog right now.  But I said I would so I'll look for something to say.

Blogging used to be a place where I shared my heart.  In that season of life, I felt God nudging me gently toward being open and transparent.  Being honest.  (Not that we ever shouldn't be, of course!)  But I think there are seasons to share and let people in freely.  And then there are seasons to hold things a little more closely.  To choose the inner circle a little more cautiously.  To heal and reflect and learn.  I can't help but think of Mary who "stored up these things and pondered them in her heart."

Being in the latter of those two seasons, I am finding it hard to find things to type here on my blog.  This used to be a place where I would just let my mind flow through my fingers onto the screen, say a prayer, and hit "publish."  But now that I don't feel like that's where I am, what do I say?  I could just skim the surface and talk about my days.  What I do with the kids. How potty training is going and what my 3 year old is up to. But without feeling inspired, I fear it would lack that personality that has been here in the past.  It would feel empty and like just another thing to do every couple days so that people keep reading. 

All that being said, I think this will be the last post on this here ol' blog-ski.  Time to close this chapter.  If this has been a place you come to see how I'm doing and to keep in touch with my life, feel free to email me or find me on fb. I'd love to be in touch with more of you on a regular basis! If you don't know who I am, I would love to meet you...just leave a comment and we'll get in touch!

It's been grand, thanks for reading.  If I find that blogging is something I'm thinking of starting up again, I'll let you know.  But for now... Adios! Adieu! Ciao! Toodle-oo! Farewell!  Good-bye.